IN TIME: A JessTon/ColtJess (Jessica Sanchez-Colton Dixon) Fan Fiction
In Time
A JessTon/ColtJess (Jessica Sanchez-Colton Dixon) Fan Fiction
*inspired by true events*
by: Jem de Peralta
*There are only two fan fictions that I wrote, Eventually part 1 and 2. The part 1 is the second most viewed post here in my blog. It’s been about a year ago... Right now, after everything that happened, I didn’t plan anything but due to the fact that there are only few JessTon/ColtJess fan fictions, I decided to make one. I’m a ColtJess/JessTon and DeJay/JayAndre shipper. If you have read Eventually, you are already aware that when I write fan fictions, there are certain events (and real-life statements by the protagonists of the story) that are included and the rest of the storyline would revolve around it. To be honest, a huge part of this could be true. Why? Even though it is a fiction, I still wanted to make it as real as possible...something that could actually happen. I want to be as close to reality as I can. I think you could pinpoint what are those that were taken from my overactive imagination. And whatever those are, they are based from what we didn’t witness in public. What really took place behind it, those private things, is obviously not what we specifically know (in details). Before you start reading, please take note that this doesn’t necessarily imply that there’s really something going on. This is maybe entirely wrong or it might make sense at the end...especially if it would turn out that almost everything about this is true.*
[Credits to the owner/s of the pictures/gifs used in this Fan Fiction. Thank you fellow ColtJess shippers and blujays for all these living testaments. I'm sorry, in advance just in case you'll get mad at me, if I haven't put your names. Anyways, peace out and let us enjoy, chill and relax. It's all for the love of ColtJess! =D <3]
[Credits to the owner/s of the pictures/gifs used in this Fan Fiction. Thank you fellow ColtJess shippers and blujays for all these living testaments. I'm sorry, in advance just in case you'll get mad at me, if I haven't put your names. Anyways, peace out and let us enjoy, chill and relax. It's all for the love of ColtJess! =D <3]
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Colton’s POV
I can’t be writing something as cheesy as this. But what can I do? I’m a coward for not exposing my true feelings for her. You can’t possibly imagine how I get tongue-tied every time I try to confess while she stares at me. Those smoking brown eyes, sweet lips and the cute dimple... I can’t even do it when her attention is on other things even though we would be alone in a room...how much more when I tell her directly?
Do you know what I hold on to each time? I would just be nostalgic with all those memories I have about her. Let me look back to that first ‘significant’ moment, the Final Judgment. As she was walking from that room, she couldn’t stop crying. For others, they might have thought that she didn’t make it to the Top 24. But, I knew right then, she would definitely make it. I have always believed on her incredible voice since the first time I heard it. I even said to myself, “She can’t only be sixteen years old!” Because of that, I even thought she was around my age. If only that’s the case right now, it will be much better.
When she got really close with DeAndre and Jeremy, I sort of have that tiny bit feeling of jealousy. I didn’t know why. But I could not deny our connection. Yeah, believe me. It actually exists. Just take a look at this particular picture when we both made it into the Top 13.
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Like for example, this ColtJess bum grinding. I don’t have any issue that Phillip, DeAndre and HeeJun were around her, as well, as long as I got to have that ‘moment’ with her. It’s funny that she’s not really a good dancer but she tried her best with those moves. By the way, don’t mind the first picture we had together that was posted in twitter.
To be honest, when that was taken, it was actually awkward. So, where was I again, before I got interrupted with the thought of that particular photo? Oh. As you noticed, I gave some hints to you JessTon shippers during the Top 10 group performance. It was pretty clever on your part, I must say. Well, silly me. I have to admit that I didn’t want that out of all these boys (my fellow contestants), who are after her, I would be left behind. I can’t allow that, absolutely.
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But then, just when things have somewhat fallen into place, it went a little out of hand. I was so taken aback when rumors began spreading between me and Skylar. As much as everyone outside the show was surprised, I was too. Where did that rumor come from?
“So, you and Skylar, huh?” she asked me one time. She was facing against me, I didn’t know why. But I remembered that her voice when she uttered those words was impassive. I wasn’t even sure what to think. Was she jealous? If that’s the case, I should be happy, shouldn’t I? But that was not what I felt. I became more confuse as ever.
I tried so hard to find some words to say…to explain, maybe. “It’s not true. It is a ridiculous rumor and I might point out, it was totally baseless…” I was afraid of how she would react to that. I prayed to God like I never prayed before.
“Was it?”
What does she mean? “What ‘was it’?”
“Baseless……” I almost didn’t hear her.
“We are really good friends. I’m 100% sure. I don’t doubt it. Call me crazy if you want, but, on a very different level, I’m closer to you. That’s so much incomparable.”
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Jay’s POV
What exactly should I feel? How could I be happy? I’m not blind to be oblivious of how Colton and Skylar treat each other. When the rumor came out, I wasn’t shocked at all. Why? It’s because that’s what already crossed my mind every single time I see them together. The way he looked at her…and those knee-weakening smiles that I dreamed of being directed at me.
I tried to get out of the way. I mean, I didn’t want to have an alone time with him because that would be SO awkward. And that grew more when, I was suddenly in my room and somebody knocked on my door and it turned out that it was him. I was overpowered. I didn’t need to put a fight to keep him off my room. Since he was blocking the way to my only escape, the door, I pretended to re-arrange my clothes in the closet. I wouldn’t manage to look at him, eye-to-eye. I’ll crumble. That’s not what I would want him to witness.
I knew why he was there. He wanted to explain. I was just very down that I asked myself, “Are you delusional? Why would he explain the thing about him and Skylar to you? He is not required to do that. You’re not his girlfriend!”
I realized how dumb I was with all my replies to him at that moment. Five words are the most that I can say? What’s up with those last two answers? One word each? This can’t be happening to me. I would not forgive myself for being incoherent for the first time in my life.
“Come here,” he said. I don’t have the guts to walk towards him. That would be a wrong move. It’s best if I should just stay away from him.
Like a bolt of lightning, it made me think that DeAndre has always been there for me. I can count on him. When I admitted to him recently that I had a crush on him a long time ago, he basically grinned. That conversation happened when we have reached to that highest level of closeness. We felt so comfortable with each other that our fellow contestants thought we were more than friends. But even though he also confessed that since Top 24, his feelings for me went deeper (from platonic to romantic) I didn’t hesitate to set the record straight. I am not here to be in a relationship. I am here to fulfill my life-long dream. It is not mainly for me but this is mostly for my family. I’ve been working hard since I was little so, I can’t just ruin or throw that because of a romance. He understood it. We even became closer than ever. I don’t know why there were not awkward moments after that. Maybe because, he didn’t force it and he is willing to wait for the right time. What do I feel for him? This may sound weird but he has a special part in my heart. But I’m not sure what it is.
So, you see, when I started to have this some kind of unexplainable yet disturbing, because I’ve never felt this way before, feeling about Colton, I was bothered. Things got more complicated. As we spent more time together, I became more drawn to him with no particular reason. Somewhere at the back of my mind, the word soul mate popped out. I am on the brink of finding out that ‘connection’ that I don’t have with DeAndre (or with the two ex-boyfriends that I had. By the way, that topic would be discussed at a later period). But whatever I have for Colton, it shouldn’t get further.
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Colton’s POV
Since the Top 10, she and DeAndre would be paired up during the interviews after each performance night. I would feel the same pang over and over again. If only I was the one with her.
As time passed, while I willingly approach her as much as I can, personal (and quite intimate) pictures of her and DeAndre would surface in twitter from time to time. I mean, of course, I would be aware of that. Another ‘if’ crossed my mind. If only I was the one she was with during those three hours they spent studying because unluckily for me, DeAndre was a minor too. So, they would get to spend more time together because of that.
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As time passed, while I willingly approach her as much as I can, personal (and quite intimate) pictures of her and DeAndre would surface in twitter from time to time. I mean, of course, I would be aware of that. Another ‘if’ crossed my mind. If only I was the one she was with during those three hours they spent studying because unluckily for me, DeAndre was a minor too. So, they would get to spend more time together because of that.
I have to be frank. DeAndre and I don’t talk that much to each other. I guess there was some kind of a wall built between us. For a guy, we know the feeling of an uncharted territory. We don’t go there because we know that there’s not much good from it. That doesn’t mean that I consider him an enemy. I’m not angry with him. I can’t deny that compared to me, he had gone that far with her. It did result to having second thoughts. I wasn’t sure where the position that I was at.
I kept fighting. I didn’t ever lose my faith again. I have God’s guidance. He will not leave me in this battle. This journey of mine is not just about achieving my dream for my music but for winning her heart too.
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I began teasing her. “When you are finished with those jeans, you can lend it to me. It will perfectly fit with me…”
“Of course, you are as skinny as me, my skinny mini buddy.”
I love to see her laugh. I can embrace the fact that I can do that to her. I held her hand and tried to pull her towards me. I was actually sitting on the couch while she was standing. So, I didn’t succeed. But, there was something that I was happy about, when our hands touched, it felt good. How much more if ever they would be intertwined? That is quite delusional in my part. Wow, aren’t I too confident to even imagine something like that might happen?
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When he was voted out, I already expected that she would not take it well.
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Before I slept that night, I urged myself to hug her goodnight. I knew she definitely needed it. But she wasn’t in her room. I looked for her around the house. Finally, I found her sitting by the pool. I hesitated at first because she might have wanted to be all by herself. But my care for her prevailed. She was still wearing that beautiful blue dress. Although, I couldn’t longer find the traces of make-up on her face, the moon helped me to see that she had been crying for a while. By the time I sat beside her, it already stopped. She looked at me and for a minute, it’s like everything went away for me because her dimple lit her face up.
I could just drown, so she would rescue me from this wonderful illusion.
“Do you have a plan of not sleeping? It’s already so late…but you’re still wide awake.”
“I might as well throw that question back to you,” she grinned.
If only I could freeze this moment forever where we are just enjoying, I’d do it without hesitation.
“You’ll still be in contact with him, right? You wouldn’t miss him that much. Trust me. He’ll probably bug you through your phone every chance he gets,” I told her.
She stared down at the pool, then, she laughed. “Yeah, he promised me.”
“Is it a pinky promise?”
“That reminds me…it wasn’t. How come you know about pinky promises?” she looked puzzled.
“Those promises mean the world to me, as much as to you. Let us say that we have similarities more than you can fathom. I discovered that, weeks ago.”
“Really? I wasn’t aware of that, not until now…”
“Listen, there’s a reason why that happened, DeAndre. God works in ways that can be mysterious at first. Maybe, it’s time for you to discover things you haven’t discovered yet. And to be close to some of us here that are not yet that close to you. It’s about time. Few more weeks to go, this competition will be over and we will have to face the real battle. I know that you consider us as a family. Among us, aside from DeAndre, I want to be as close to you as possible so I could just take care of you. That world outside, can be so fierce and damaging. But, as early as now, you should remember that I’m one of those millions of people, who love you, that will keep you from hurt and harm.”
“Why are you saying all of these to me?”
“Isn’t it obvious?” Where did that gut come from?
“Are you…?”
“I thought these all through. I know that age isn’t the only one that’s keeping us apart from this. There are a few things to consider. I know that. I’m doing this because I want you to have an idea. There are many risks right now. Somehow, in the future, these will be overcome. I am not even sure if I have a chance on you. But, this is not something to rush about. There might be a long list of your admirers at this point…I was just added. I am willing to wait. The right time will come.”
She became speechless. She just stared at the water for so long that I was not patient enough to wait for her to at least say something. I can’t blame her. I mean, I just let out a huge bomb, right? “Will you make a pinky promise with me?”
What were the thoughts in my mind? It basically ran through this paragraph: No matter what, I will survive through loving you in silence. I can be contented with that, if I really have to. In time, it will come. When it happens, I will hold on even tighter. If we would not end up together, I would be as selfless as you are. But if it’s the other way around, I would probably thank God every second because He would have just given me the most important and special blessing I could ever have.
I couldn’t possibly think that long? Well, I was rattled, you know? Almost every word was scrambling inside my head. This is what happens when you are not ready. It is better to have a plan. Believe me.
“I’m sorry. I got lost in thoughts… That was a lot to take in…” she explained.
It seemed that she was apologizing…wait a minute…she didn’t do anything wrong. I was the one who suddenly became melodramatic. Put yourself in her shoes. I could have just at least warned her. Well, there’s no turning back.
“I…..” This is when I should finish my sentence.
The grace under pressure that she is, which is another one of those that are beyond her age, she raised her right pinky finger, “Game.”
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Jay’s POV
That particular night was such a whirlwind. You could say that my emotions just went through a roller coaster ride. I never thought that I would be at that point where there would be these guys who would have ‘that’ feeling for me. I was not the girl that guys would chase after. This is the first time that I’m experiencing it. But, I am not really enjoying these attentions from them. If anything, it is just so hard for me.
Let me rewind, 2 years ago. I had my first kiss when I was only 14 years old. At that young age, I didn’t have an idea what love is. Of course, I had crushes, it was just normal. With my first boyfriend, now that I think of it, I don’t know exactly why we became a couple. He’s goofy, that’s for sure and he’s also into music like me. Those were probably why I was somewhat attracted to him. But there was nothing deep and serious about it. We were more of like little children playing together, having loads lots of fun. How did it end? Well, it was not like what we watch on tv or theater/cinema. Was it hard? No, it’s even one of the easiest. When the second boyfriend came, I had no idea. I didn’t even know what to make of him. He’s quite different from the first one. In what way? He’s not the humorous type of guy. Anyways, as I grew older, I began to focus much more on my music. Eventually, I decided to leave it all behind and to embark on the dream that my heart, mind and soul were set on since I was a little child.
I would not just let what my mother had sacrificed for me to be wasted. My family is my first inspiration. As much as I would finally live with this dream, I want to help my family too. This is my chance, and I’m gonna grab it. It will be a huge mistake if I would let it slip away. Nothing and no guy will become the reason for me to be distracted.
That doesn’t mean that I don’t appreciate all these attentions from Colton, DeAndre and Jeremy. I am equally thankful to my guy fans who are so supportive. In regards to the first two guys, I’ll let it run its course. Romance is currently my least priority. It can be at the backburner for a moment. And whoever ‘that’ guy would be, he would manage to wait.
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Colton’s POV
Our pinky promise is to have a duet someday. That’s not a lame one, is it? What was I suppose to say, ‘I’m willing to wait. Right from this moment, I will not let you go. Not until, we both discover that we are not meant to be together’? It sounds so cheesy…probably the cheesiest thing ever. It was a good thing that it wasn’t what I said.
Since DeAndre is already out of the picture…that’s terribly rude Colton…you are really rejoicing that he was not in the competition anymore. Yup, that’s me. Wait a minute, I have a new problem. Since she was the only one left in school, she would go home to the mansion with Phillip. He would be the one to drive. He has something to deal with his kidney. Next thing I knew, they got closer until I noticed that she began to have a crush on him.
My reaction was, ‘What the heck?! What about me?’ I don’t even know if she has even the tiniest bit of admiration for me. If there is, is it stronger than with Phillip or DeAndre?
Calm down. I can handle this. I’ve come this far.
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This reminds me, it would have been better if Phillip and Elise weren’t present. How can I ever get her alone with me? Freaking third wheels, hahahahahhahaha.
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During the Top 7 group performance, I enjoyed every single bit of it. We didn’t really have a duet but at least, there were some moments in there. When she put her arm on my shoulder, and when she looked straight at me…these precious things that I can’t seem to get enough.
I wished there were more. I was actually crushed because she had a duet with Phillip. What about the pinky promise? What can we do? It’s not like we have the control over these group performances. But I still have the hope that, in the future, we would definitely have that duet. And when it happens, it’s going to be a huge blast.
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I wished there were more. I was actually crushed because she had a duet with Phillip. What about the pinky promise? What can we do? It’s not like we have the control over these group performances. But I still have the hope that, in the future, we would definitely have that duet. And when it happens, it’s going to be a huge blast.
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Jay’s POV
I wasn’t sure why but I already had an instinct that I was about to go home that night. Thinking clearly isn’t the state I was in. I’ll admit that I was really overwhelmed with the reaction of most of those in that place. My mom was already freaking out in the audience and the judges were plainly shocked.
When I started to sing for my life, I didn’t expect that the judges would use the save for me. As they came rushing towards the stage, the first thought that came into my mind was ‘What are they doing?’ And then JLO grabbed the mic away from me. I realized, maybe, they didn’t want me to sing because they already wanted me to go home. I was wrong.
That was probably one of those few nights that have a really big impact on me.
After I sang, the after-effect of what happened was still there. I wanted to cry so hard but I could not do that in front of these people. My mother went up on stage and she joined me. I am very grateful of her presence. At least, I handled it better. For others, they might have broken down if they were in my shoes. I think I surprised a lot because they would not have imagined that I could gracefully survive it through. I mean, that is rare for a 16 year-old to have that kind of control.
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I gave him the go signal that it was okay. My mom looked ever as he hugged me very tightly. I couldn’t even breathe because I was literally sandwiched by him. It was the most intimate moment I have with him, so far.
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“Thank you…thank you so much.”
As I was about to finish singing, Colton hugged my mom. To think that they’re not even that close to each other. But that gesture made me smile. If anything, I want ‘these’ guys to go through my parents first. In that way, whether or not they approve, it would mean a lot to me. I trust their judgment. If I was in his place, I would be happy because that was such a smooth move.
When we posed for our group picture, it just felt right when I leaned towards him. I could feel the spark when our arms touched. Yup, I think I’m starting to fall for him. Is that even good?
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Colton’s POV
It’s like my prayer was answered when we got to have moments during the shoot of the Ford music video. I didn’t care that much when I wore this ridiculous Taurus costume. It was really funny, she was laughing continuously about it, because I had these horns and fake abs. I’m skinny so you can’t possibly find that on my belly. I let that pass because you know, as you have watched the video, we were having fun there looking through the telescope. I saw her dimple again. Come to think of it, she could be the brightest and biggest constellation ever. She keeps on shining more, like it never fades.
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During the photo shoot for the nationwide tour, DeAndre was back. It was okay with me because I got to hold her hand while her arm rested on his shoulder. She was leaning on me, instead of him. What’s important is I now know how perfect her hand is in mine. She should realize that instantly.
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Finally, I had the chance to do after-performance interviews of the Top 7 with her. Yes, together. What stuck in my mind at that time is when we were answering the following questions: ‘What’s the number one thing on your bucket list?’ and ‘What’s the most embarrassing song on your mp3 player?’
With the first one, maybe she was joking when she said that the first thing on her bucket list is to meet me. She was not teasing me, right? Since that already happened, I asked her the second one in her list. She answered that she wants to meet Eminem. I must have known that when it comes to male music artists, she’s super crazy about Eminem. That guy is lucky. Can I switch with him?
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With the second question, while she was answering, I have no idea why I didn’t help myself from licking my lips as I was staring at her. That was so embarrassing because the camera managed to take that particular scene. When she finished saying “What’s that song, Drop It Like It’s Hot?’ I immediately laughed. She’s 16 years old, why the hell does she have that kind of song in her iPod? She can’t possibly be listening to that song?! She continued by saying, “Yeah, that song.” Then, I replied, “It’s pretty embarrassing.” She looked so cute when she stared up at me when I was saying that.
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But the cutest thing was the undeniable fact that she was standing right behind me throughout the interview. And yeah, it wasn’t that obvious but I will admit that she was actually holding my arm too. It felt like I was a protective boyfriend.
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Jay’s POV
Tomorrow was another results night. I don’t understand myself why I’m having a hard time to sleep. This can’t be about me. It is something else…
He was on the balcony of the mansion. I saw an empty cup of tea on the table. I stood beside him…his eyes were on the twilight sky. It seemed that he didn’t notice me. I started to talk, “Is there something wrong?”
He took a deep breath, “Based from my performances, I might be in the bottom three tomorrow.”
“No way! You will not be in there,” I told him honestly.
“We can’t be sure. Anything can happen, my skinny me,” he replied.
He was the one who’s not cheerful but he is still the one who makes this conversation less gloomy. “Don’t call me your ‘skinny me’? That’s so not as appealing as my ‘skinny mini buddy’.”
My heart flutters every time I see him laughing because of me. Just looking at him like that right now…it’s indescribable.
“If I’m really gonna be in the bottom three, you have to kiss me on the cheek.”
Am I hearing him right? Is he kidding? “What?”
“I trust my intuition. I know what I’m doing. So, if ever that will happen tomorrow, and if it even came to me being voted out, at least, it wouldn’t be that sad because I would have a kiss from you. That will be more than worth it.”
A kiss?
“It’s my last one bet. Please, agree,” he gave me that look that I couldn’t resist.
I knew that we were both taking the risk but it’s a lot higher on mine. What should I do? He’s not going to be in the bottom three and the lesser the possibility is that he’s going to be eliminated. If ever the former happens, I should not put a lot of fuss about that. A kiss on the cheek? What if it’s the latter? But, he didn’t bet a kiss on the lips if ever that happens, right?
“Fine. That’s a bet.”
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Colton’s POV
That evening was not as bad as my fans would consider because I was gone from the competition. I was, in fact, blessed. I made it that far and I met these people that I treasure. I get to share my music and I am sure that it wouldn’t end there. God knows what’s best for me. That’s He’s will. I’m happy.
Most importantly, I’m contented that at that point, I have a great chance on her. The progress is evident. And I know that the hope is not gone yet.
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So, among the three of us, she was the first one to be called safe. I didn’t have any doubt that she’s gonna make it through. Since, Phillip was the one closer to her, she hugged him first. That was okay with me. Just think of this, it’s the one you end up with that really matters right? So, yeah, I had this huge smile on my face, like I was fan boying.
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“You’re going to stay,” she whispered to me.
The public is watching. But there’s nothing wrong with whispering something while hugging, right? I admit that it was more intimate than the typical ones. I can’t help but smile with what she said. Her choice of words is because it’s either she didn’t want me to leave so she would not have to kiss me on the cheek or she truly believed that I should stay. I’d rather prefer the latter.
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Jay’s POV
When I heard his name, I was shattered. I didn’t have the courage to approach him on that stage. Everybody was able to hug him, except me. All of a sudden, he went towards me and he said “Come here baby. You know I love you,” while he hugged me.
The moment those words were uttered by him, I almost fainted. It was as if I was the one who got voted out. A sad thought crossed my mind, just when we were at the verge of that peak…he had to fall.
Before he moved out, we got to talk. It was the last time before I would see him again. “Hey. I miss you already. I’ll keep in contact, okay?”
I was caged again in his skinny arms. Losing him at this moment is like dying even though I don’t want to. “You’re not sad?”
We were now facing each other with only a little space between us. “No. This might look like a negative thing at first, but eventually, it’s a blessing from God. That’s what I believe in. There’s another plan for me. Besides, this is not yet the end. Opportunities are yet to knock on my door. The windows were already opened.”
“About the bet…”
“You know, you don’t need to do that if you don’t want to. I absolutely understand. Listen, when I leave, you should remember that I’m still going to be there for you…all the way. I have your back. You’ll make farther than you can imagine. That might be about winning the title or it might also be a bigger thing.” His one hand is in his pocket. “I might as well, go now. You have to sleep early. It was a tiring day, you know.”
I stared directly into his eyes. When his connected with mine, I felt that I was lost to this totally different world. I noticed that he was wearing his favorite cross necklace. I also have one…it is one of my lucky charms.
He turned around. I could hear his steps away from me. I should move. I have to do something. He was about three feet away when I yelled at him, “Wait!”
He looked back and he seemed confused. The moment I stopped running, I held his hands. I didn’t need to tiptoe that much because I was still wearing a high-heeled red shoes…when I kissed him on the cheek.
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Colton’s POV
I wasn’t sure whose face was redder when we were both blushing after that took place.
The next day, she tweeted the kiss on the cheek to me with ‘love you! <3’ in it. Yes, imagine how many people saw that. I replied that she should kill her performance on that week.
When I had my interview with Fox 5, I didn’t tell her about it. But she still got to watch it. I didn’t want her to see that because she would get to hear what I said when the host asked me about her. “Jessica is such a sweetheart. I miss her so much already.” That pretty much almost gave it all away. I even mentioned the bet! When she tweeted about it, I thought I was doomed. She saw that interview and she misses me, those were what her tweet contained. I let out a huge sigh of relief. Publicly, I replied to her, “I miss you too darlin’”.
I know she will not take the ‘darlin’ seriously, but deep inside my heart, I hoped she would because it is not that simple and casual as some will say.
Behind those tweets, we would exchange text messages. Calling her is something I haven’t tried yet. Why? Well, I’m afraid that it might go wrong. But, the time will come when I would manage to do that. Maybe, soon.
Text transcript:
Colton: How’s the rehearsal?
Jay: The same as before. How’s home?
Colton: I get to hang out with my sister again. I miss her so much.
Jay: You always miss her ever since Top 24.
Colton: But now that we’re reunited, I will not miss her. I’m starting to get used to these things again here. It’s not hard to adjust.
Jay: I’m glad to know. How long will you be staying there, do you think?
Colton: Why? Do you miss me?
Jay: Not much. You would always make me feel your presence almost every hour of everyday.
Colton: You’ll get used to it…. I’ll be back there in LA when the rehearsals for the finale start.
Jay: That’s about four weeks from now…
Colton: Yeah. By the way, what will you sing? I’m so excited for the performance night. I heard that you’re gonna sing Queen songs.
Jay: What do you think?
Colton: Knowing you, probably, one of the hardest, or should I say, big songs of Queen. I haven’t figured it out yet.
Jay: Right.
Colton: Tell me you’re not gonna sing Bohemian Rhapsody?
Jay: That’s the first one I’m going to sing :)
Colton: No! Really?
Jay: Yeah
Colton: I can’t wait. You’re going to rock it :)
Jay: Thanks
Colton: What’s the other song?
Jay: I’m gonna dedicate Dance With My Father to my Dad. He’s gonna be deployed to Singapore soon.
Colton: You’ll nail it, for sure.
Jay: What a big confidence you have on me…
Colton: I have always been amazed with what you can do, especially when you sing, you know.
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Colton’s POV
Before the Top 5 was revealed, I went back to LA. I didn’t tell her anything because I would love to see her reaction when I surprise her. The time of traveling was worth it. As I take one glance at her, I became speechless. She was wearing this tight dress where her body shape was somewhat highlighted. And yes, she did make it through. I actually tagged along when they went out to eat after the result. I couldn’t seem to take her alone with me because there were so many third wheels in the midst. When she arrived, I turned my back against her…hoping that she would not think instantly that it was me. It was a good thing that my hair wasn’t exposed because she would really recognize it even from afar.
I miss everything about her… I could not wait to give her a neck hug. When she stood there by my side, I panicked. My mind went blank…I didn’t know what to do. That usually happens when you have this person close to you that has a very special place in your heart and you haven’t seen for a while. Then, I saw her enchanting smile.
“I thought you’re still at home?”
“Are you not happy to see me now?” I asked her.
“You could have just texted me so I would know…”
“I wanted to surprise everyone here…especially you, my skinny me. I have missed you so much.”
“I miss you too…Come on, I need to catch up with you but before that we should go inside and eat because I’m starving.”
“I know…”
“You know what?”
I know that you miss me. “That you’re already hungry,” I managed to say.
Adam, one of the Top 24 finalists, called their attention. “Hey guys, are you coming or not?”
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“Hey! Are you listening to me?” Adam yelled at them.
I looked at him. Don’t you see that we are having a moment here? Can’t you just give us more time to be like this? Don’t you understand me? Because I’m sure you’ve been through this too. “We’re coming.”
I felt her hold on to me. That’s when I became more determined to protect her no matter what.
What we are right now? I’m going to revel in this rare chance.
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Jay’s POV
Let us fast forward to that time when we were finally reunited.
I knew that he was back when he did his signature neck hug to me.
“Ahem…we’re still here you know. Just let us know if you need some privacy…” HeeJun said. Colton let go of me. We pretty much both blushed.
He invited me in the piano room so we could have a chit chat. I agreed because I miss him. Then, I caught a glimpse of DeAndre. He had this very strange look on his face… Something that says, ‘I might kill somebody’.
“So, was your homecoming crazy as heck?” he asked me. We were sitting side by side facing the piano.
“It was amazing. Though it was tiring because I was moving from one place to another for a short time, I really enjoyed it so much. I can’t believe that it would be that big.”
“I was not surprise with the huge amount of support you have.”
“Really?”
“It’s true. How can’t they love you? Imagine a complete package rolled into one.”
“Careful, my head will get bigger with your too many praises.”
“No. That’s not going to happen…”
“Why?”
“You’re one of the most grounded persons I know. No matter how big you would become, you would be as humble as before. I’m sure of it.”
That’s when I noticed that we were both wearing our own cross necklaces, that made me tingle.
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Colton’s POV
“How’s your throat?” I asked her. She was in the kitchen, making some tea.
“It’s not at its best but at least it’s getting better, although, it might not be fully okay when I perform tomorrow.”
“It’s a good thing that you still have your voice. That’s something to be thankful about.” I’m not worried that she’s gonna mess up because that never happens. When she sings tomorrow, people wouldn’t even notice that there’s something wrong.
“Yeah, you’re right. By the way, why are you still up? Don’t tell me you have throat problems too?”
Because I want you to be the last person I see before I sleep. And even though we’re now living in the same house, I would still dream about you. When I wake up in the morning, I always have the urge to have you within a striking distance of me. But if you’re too far to be reached, I can be contented with even the thought of you. That way, it’s like you’re just close. That doesn’t mean you have been gone out of my life. It will never happen because you stay safely in my heart, forever. “I wanted to make sure that everyone else is asleep before I hit the sheets myself.”
“Really? Weren’t you the earliest one to sleep among us?”
“Things changed…” except for one.
The rest of the Top 12 sat in the audience during the Top 3 performance night. But I will not bore you with everything that happened that night. The ones that I’ll mention are the most important.
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I fell so quiet all throughout her My All performance. Listening to that song being sung by her… I was speechless. Do you know what should have been so great with it? If only she directed it at me. But at least, it was not also directed at DeAndre or anyone that I know of.
Before she performed I Don’t Wanna Miss A Thing, she was interviewed on stage by Ryan. “It was amazing. It was kinda weird to see all those people. When I was at home, I was homeschooled and like, I didn’t have like a lot of friends, you know. I was kinda like the dork…nobody really liked me,” I laughed when she mentioned the dork part and I was like ‘IMPOSSIBLE! How could that happen?’ with the last part about nobody liking her before. My brows crossed when she said, “It’s kinda weird because this time, guys were chasing my car. And I was like, that never happened before. So, it’s kind of awesome.” Ryan asked her, “Did you get any numbers?” She replied, “I did. Yeah. No one called yet. But, yeah.” My reaction at that moment probably meant ‘Who are those guys?'
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Watching that video…you could really see how simple and natural she is. Typical is a wrong word to describe her because she’s not in any way close to that.
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Jay’s POV
After the performance night, I knew that almost everybody already expected that I would not be one of the Top 2. I didn’t want to read articles that were sure of predicting that I would be going home. I knew that it wasn’t my best night. I tried my best with the three songs, withstanding my sore throat. I can feel some pain with what people were saying. At the same time, I admit that I would probably be voted off because Phillip and Joshua both performed really well. As they might say, I was the only one who ‘sucked’.
Being in the Top 3 is already a big deal. I’m happy to make it at this point. Whatever happens tomorrow, I’m ready. If I would not be in the Top 2, I’ll accept it wholeheartedly. I would be happy for Phillip and Joshua.
Before the show started, Colton and I had a chance to talk. It was actually funny because he was nervous about the result.
“I don’t understand why you seem calm and collected. You’re even smiling like there’s no pressure on you…”
“I will not be making it into the finale. I’m prepared to embrace it just in case that will really happen. Many people will not be surprised if I would be voted out tonight.”
“Don’t say that. It might not even happen…”
“Why do you say that?”
“It’s because, your fans would not have left you when you’re just one step away from the finale and you needed them the most. Regardless of your songs last night…whether or not you were great or not-so-great…I mean, when did you ever perform bad? Not the best, that’s possible, but bad? Come on. You have this broad and diverse fan base. You’re going to make it.”
“You’re so optimistic about me…How come you never say anything negative. Something that could let me down…”
“That’s not important right now.”
“Okay. I’ll go out there. Whatever the result will be, I’m not gonna feel bad about it. That’s for sure. I’m not going to be confident. They both deserve it.”
“So, do you mean that you don’t deserve to be in the Top 2 just because of what happened last night?”
“They earned it more.”
“Have I always said to you that you’re so humble?”
“Most of the time…”
“There you go.”
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Colton’s POV
I sat beside Jeremy during the result’s night. Did I already mention that he has this very obvious crush on her? He doesn’t even need to say it. I know what he’s going through. I salute him for being that brave…calling her and all. At least I have an idea about him. But with DeAndre…nah. It’s like top secret. He was sitting one seat apart Jeremy.
Where was I again? Oh yeah. The moment she stepped out on stage…Jeremy and I, competed on who had the loudest cheer. She was wearing this short white dress and her signature high heels. I was gentleman enough to keep my eyes off her legs too much. I grinned when I thought that if I was a girl, I would have the same legs as hers.
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She’s working hard all her life. I know how big deal it is if she makes it in the Top 2.
When the recap of her performances was being shown, I watched intently. I’m as curious as Jeremy and DeAndre. I absolutely didn’t miss the part when Jimmy Iovine said that she is worthy singing on the Grammy’s. I agree, 100%. But there’s one thing that he forgot to say. A voice like hers is worthy and so deserving to win in the Grammy’s.
That was a huge compliment from Jimmy. Surely, she was overwhelmed. Who would not be?
The tension was at the highest when the announcement of those who made it into the Top 2 was revealed. As Ryan started, I noticed that she was smiling. I said to her in my mind, “Please don’t think that you’re not going to make it. Have faith and believe that you’ll make it through.”
“After nearly 90 million votes, an incredible number, the first person to compete in the Season 11 Finale is…Jessica Sanchez!” Jeremy was overjoyed while I tried so hard to not jump because of too much happiness. Above anything else, her facial reaction was priceless.
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Jay’s POV
Phillip and I became super busy with the media rounds, rehearsals and recordings, etc. I would not deny that there was a great pressure on me. I would even be honest enough to say that I might end up as a runner-up to Phillip. He would win. But the game is not yet over. I’ll still try and as much as possible, give my very best with the last performances that are left for me. There are many people out there who believe in me. I would definitely not waste it.
I’ll enjoy this moment as much as I can. It’s not always that you land in the Top 2.
The song choices might cost me the title. It’s not as if I have the authority with the two songs. I didn’t feel good with it. At least, I might have the chance to redeem myself, just in case, with The Prayer, which I got to choose. Why did I pick that song? Well, among everything that I sang, it was distinct. I’m really familiar with it and the environment when I performed it in Las Vegas was heart capturing. Not to mention, it was the one that spearheaded my inclusion in the Top 24.
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Colton’s POV
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Many of you are maybe wondering about the story behind this particular picture. If I am in your place, I would also be curious. This must be one of the most intimate personal pictures of us together. You could not even imagine how much I actually value it.
Since I’m writing this, and by showing how appreciative and grateful I am of all your support, I’ll share it with you. But I want to remind you that, there are certain things that I would left to myself, just because it will not be special anymore if everything is absolutely known to the public. And, if in putting ourselves out there in the fickle world of this industry our lives would become an open book, ALMOST, at least, privacy is one of those things that we want to still have.
Anyways, I know you’re excited. So, here it goes…
“Hey, are you still up to the test?”
I found her sitting alone on a couch in a corner, and holding her phone. Probably, she’s tweeting again.
“Of course, I’m already used to working hard. That’s me.”
That’s one of the countless reasons why I love you. “Yeah, I know. Are you having another twitter party?”
“Not really. I just love hearing from my fans. Reading these sweet tweets from them… I am so blessed having them in my life. I try as much as I possible to read everything and to reply to as many as I can. Even in that way, they can be aware that I’m so appreciative of their unfailing support and love.”
“You just have this solid support system. More and more are being added every day. It’s outrageous how fast it grows.” It’s really funny whenever I look back. Right when we started our official twitter account, I got the most followers and then, it didn’t take that long when she went way beyond. I was not amazed when she already got the most followers. I’m happy that she’s the one on the top. I prefer it more than when it was someone else, no offense to the others. I know that it’s not a competition but having a huge lead from the one next to her, I’m the one who’s happy and proud. Isn’t it lame? When it comes to love…it isn’t.
“I know, right?”
Listen to yourself Colton. Make a move or else you’ll regret it. Think of something. Don’t you have an idea? At this moment…Yes, I do.
“What do you think if we take a picture of us together?” People will go mad about it especially the ColtJess shippers. It’s not just for them, it’s also for me.
Jay’s POV
When I was introduced by Ryan before my I Have Nothing performance, I didn’t have any idea that Hee Jun nudged Colton. He also whispered something to him. I wonder what that was. Seriously, I’m not good at lip reading. I could just ask Hee Jun, right? To be honest, it’s like he knows something…I can’t pinpoint exactly what ‘that’ is but…well.
Singing my first song that night, I tried as much as I can to avoid looking towards where Colton and DeAndre, or even Jeremy, were. Through my peripheral vision, I knew that they had their full attention on me. I couldn’t help but get even the tiniest bit of being conscious. That awkward moment was when I saw them sitting right behind my family.
Not wearing heels in my performance of The Prayer was the right one to do because I wanted everything at that moment to be just solemn. And when I was finished, I saw this huge smile on his face. Was it because of the heels or what? DeAndre was just right behind him, trying to be noticed. Whose idea was the seating arrangement, anyway?
Everyday I’m wakin’ up to déjà vu. Someone’s always telling me not to stick with you. Could it be the nights we spent of fixing us? I never thought that we were really that messed up. Should have shut my mouth and kept it all to myself. ‘Cause now they’ve got me feeling I should be with somebody else. They say we don’t fit together. I could do better. There’s always something. They don’t know the hell we’ve been through. ‘Cause when you hold me like you do, that’s when I wanna change nothing.
As if I could really relate to the lyrics of Change Nothing, my possible single. Trust me, it’s hard to draw emotion for that song because I have never been through that yet. But, like every love song that I perform, I try to imagine what it would be like being in that kind of situation. That’s not an easy task. The song itself wasn’t something that I’m comfortable with. I didn’t have that many songs to choose from…and it turned out that it was the best one. But it still needed some polishing. The live version that I did on that night made it seem a straight pop. Some people might get the wrong notion that I’m a pop singer other than a balladeer even though I’m actually more than that.
I wouldn’t deny that the choice of that song played somehow, a crucial part of the eventual result. But since the competition is over, I am ready to prove myself to the world that I am my own artist and I’m much more than what the people have seen me on Idol.
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Colton’s POV
Seeing her sitting on that piano, I imagined myself as the one who’s playing it. Maybe, someday, we could do that. It would be so awesome. I have that certain edge over DeAndre (or Phillip or Jeremy). I’m the piano man, remember?
As she sang that song, I was kinda deaf. My other senses were gone except my sight. I just stared at her all throughout. She was plainly spectacular as always. I didn’t even care of whatever the respective reactions of DeAndre and Jeremy at that moment. They’re not worthy of being distractions.
When we got to do press interviews right after, I didn’t expect anything. I have to thank God, endlessly, for blessing me with that certain out-of-the-blue moment. What am I talking about? Oh? I thought you already knew. After all, didn’t you, ColtJess/JessTon shippers regard it as just one of the most precious ever?
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Jay’s POV
I officially have a confused heart right now. I don’t have any idea why did I do that. I think I have already mentioned to you before that he has this strong brotherly, at the same time, friendly and romantically fondness and care towards me. It’s almost unexplainable. Something just pulled me. Believe it or not, even I am, is still in a state of shock, that back hug was a natural action on my part. And this is what’s weird…I love the feeling. It just felt both good and right. Now, tell me now, can you help me by explaining what exactly did happen?
An impulse? Whatever the case, the security and safety that I felt with him, it was undeniable. I always come down to the same thing over and over again that he’s one of those few people that serve as my haven. If that doesn’t sum it up…I don’t know what is.
I’m just 16 years old. My vulnerability regarding this matter is at its peak. Would I let him in?
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Colton’s POV
This might be the right time to be a night owl. You see, I didn’t get it why of all people, she chose to go bowling with Jeremy. One reason might be, I am not into bowling but honestly, I can survive through that game if I have to, just to be with her. She would be there, so, I don’t think I would get bored.
Lucky him, it’s not always that a guy would get to play bowling with Jessica Sanchez. Next time, I’ll volunteer whether or not she will ask someone to go along with her.
It’s not really obvious when I waited for her to be back at home. Yeah, that was absolutely valiant on my part. I have an excuse for doing that. What would that be? Simple. I wanted to make sure that she would not have even a single bruise.
“I thought you’re already asleep…”
“For some reason, I can’t seem to sleep.” It’s because of you and I don’t mind even if it gets to a point where I already have eye bags. “So, how did it go?”
“Jerbear was a good sport. It’s funny that I always win over him. Maybe he just let it happen. Or I’m just really better than him in bowling.” She poured warm water in her glass and drank it within a few seconds.
“Careful. You don’t want the water to be spilled on you…” Then, I realized that she called Jeremy ‘jerbear’. I was like, REALLY? I have to admit, I don’t want to compare, but it’s so nothing compared to ‘skinny mini buddy’. Mine, rhymes and sounds real well. Not to mention, it’s composed of three words…the same with I Love You. Oh yeah, I’m not going to be jealous of Jeremy. “What matters right now is that, you enjoyed.”
“You’re right. At least, I had fun instead of being worn down because of the pressure and everything about the results tomorrow night.”
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Jay’s POV
My duet with my second mama, the And I Am Telling You I’m Not Going performance was one of the greatest. Many considered it as epic. And I agree with them. I was a little scared because I know she’s just the best and I might not be able to even come close to her level. I wasn’t intimidated with her ‘faces’. You know, I wasn’t able to notice it because of the fact that we sang our heart out and we focused ourselves in singing it. It’s quite unbelievable but we actually rehearsed it once.
After we performed, I was so relieved. I told myself that it doesn’t matter if I will not get the title because what I felt during that moment made me realized that I am already a winner. They could just give it to Phillip. I wouldn’t mind. Lo and behold, it did happen. When Ryan announced his name, I accepted it wholeheartedly because in my heart, I’m sure that I wasn’t really defeated. I won something much more than the TITLE.
It was a crazy night. There were so many things that happened. But I already started to feel out of the bubble that I was in for several months.
I was yet to be surprised.
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Should I be hurt that I bumped real hard on him? Or was it his chest? The feeling of his comfort prevailed. Really, I couldn’t ask for more.
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Colton’s POV
I was concerned for her because while she was losing her voice, she was still doing all these press interviews. Though, she could manage it.
With all the gigs, appearances and exposures that she continuously had after the competition, people who are either unaware or not about the finale result, would think that she was the one who won. You can’t blame them. Not all of these were because she had to fill in for Phillip, who is undergoing medications and operation for his kidney problem.
Her presence in the Memorial Day concert was already scheduled when the competition was still on-going. This is because it was more of a personal event and not all about Idol.
My skinny mini’s grandfather was a retired Navy while her father is currently in the service. It was also special to her as much as to the families of those who were and are in the military. She nailed the US National Anthem, as usual. We’ve got to be proud of her. It was too bad that the event was canceled because of the bad weather. They only had to show the final rehearsal footage of The Prayer. I’m sure that those who were present there really felt the emotion of the song. It could not have done better. They made the right decision on choosing her.
Above anything else, though, there’s one thing that I can’t deny…I miss her so much.
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Jay’s POV
Doing the UStream, it was one way of showing my appreciation to my fans. They are a big part of where I am right now. Besides, it would be so much fun interacting with them more closely.
But I didn’t brace myself for anything in connection with DeAndre, Phillip and Colton. Missing Phillip was just normal because we got to spend so much time together during the last week of Idol. He’s been really good to me. I just hope that people don’t misunderstand him. He treats me like a younger sister. And don’t forget, he has Hannah.
DeAndre, on the other hand, as I’ve said before, is the one closest to me. We’re like BFFs and even though I’m not that open to my fans regarding my, well…love life (honestly, I have none), I had a gut to finally admit when they asked me, that I had a crush on him before. Seriously, I don’t know where our friendship will lead, but as of now, I’m happy of what we are.
The whole time, I didn’t vocally react, but it freaked me out a little bit that more people were asking for Colton. It was not as if I could just call him about the live streaming. Anyways, I was telling the truth when I told them that he’s really funny. I wouldn’t lie about that. And did I just say more than once that I love him? Wow! That was so…giving. What if I shut my mouth before I even accidentally say something that must not be known by anyone (even my own family?) other than me?
I’m not sure what his reaction will be when he hears about this.
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Colton’s POV
I’m a coward. Period. Tell me about it. I was afraid of texting or calling her. My lame excuse was, she’s busy, so I can’t possibly butt in on whatever she’s doing because I might only be a nuisance.
But, I can consume myself in watching her interviews. When she was in Live with Kelly, I didn’t miss it. Jessica was Kelly’s bet. More people are becoming vocal about it. And their disappointment is obvious. You have to give my skinny me a props with the way she handled this kind of reaction from her fans. When you look at it, they had the harder time to accept and embrace the result. It really helped them that they saw how sport and graceful she is.
It’s more than overwhelming for her, I assume, that she has all these big names from the entertainment (music) industry that support her and have a high level of praise and faith in her amazing ability and more importantly, her, as a person.
Kelly asked her if she knows how to drive since she won a car. All of a sudden, something crossed my mind…my girlfriend, which is the black and white car that I have at home. If she had to learn driving from someone other than her parents or relatives, it has to be me. She fits more in my car than DeAndre’s. Oops, sorry DeAndre. I should stop thinking about that. She’s not a property to be owned by anyone.
I’m so obsessed of wanting to be there for her because I could imagine how worn out she would become with the media circus. I should quit worrying too much. It might draw attention from the others that I’m reacting like her boyfriend, which is, sad to say, true. I would love it but we haven’t gotten so close to that point yet.
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Jay’s POV
Strange as it may seem, the only one among my fellow Idol finalists that I gave nickname to is Colton, not DeAndre. But it isn’t a revelation that Colton and I are both skinny. That’s why I call him my skinny mini buddy while he nicknamed me his ‘skinny mini me’. And because we have the same size of clothes, funny as it is, we could just borrow each other’s clothes and wear them any time we like. I was actually asked about those things during some of my interviews.
Doing all those press events, it’s really exhausting but at the same time, enjoying in a way. When I had at least few days of break, I was excited to be back at home. I missed terribly everyone and everything in Chula Vista. And I couldn’t wait to jump on that Xbox since I haven’t played for months. I think I even lost some of my skills in that department. Hopefully, I could still catch up with my little brothers.
In my very short vacation, I made the most of it because I knew that I would be soon up against the test of endurance. I took the chance to go Disneyland with my brothers and my cousin. There was a picture of us that I posted in my twitter. I received some comments that since I am Minnie, who’s gonna be my Mickey. So, I tweeted about it, “Who’s gonna be my micky? <3 :)”
Out of the blue, a thief of the night crept into my twitter account hours later and replied with, “your skinny mini Micky!haha”. That was Colton. I expected my fans to answer that and not anyone from Idol. And the fact that, out of all my fellow finalists, he was the one who even noticed about that and took the time to say something, is just plainly unsettling. To be frank, I didn’t know if I should reply, so, I only retweeted it.
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Even not so smart people would know that a neck hug is not a ‘friendly’ kind of hug but an ‘intimate’ one. It definitely has a ‘deeper’ meaning.
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Colton’s POV
ColtJess shippers are ‘very’ keen and observant. You don’t have to thank me for saying that because you really are clever. There were many speculations about the Minni-Micky incident.
If asking for her Micky has a deeper meaning of probably testing those who would be willing to be symbolized as her ‘partner’ or maybe protector (as in knight in shining armor), she’d be the only one to know. We can have ideas but to be honest, I didn’t even think of it when I volunteered to be a Micky to her Minni. Neither correcting the spelling of Micky by adding ‘e’ in between k and y because that’s what’s most familiar with people.
But there’s this one reason why it caught my attention. My first name is Michael and Micky can be derived from it. I want to assume that it is the message she is sending aside from the fact that I’m the most suited Micky for my skinny Minni.
I’ll set it straight. I am not stalking her twitter. Let just say that I’m more interested on what is happening to her and I have more patience to go back hours or days ago just to be updated. It’s all because of her. Come to think of it, if I can wait for her, ‘stalking’ would already be so easy.
My friend and I had an Ustream. Well, it was more mine than his, actually. Anyways, I was not prepared when somebody asked me about Jessica. I was not born to be rude, so, I answered their question, “I do miss Jessica.”
I gave my friend a knowing look because he went on to say, “Awwwww!” I talked to him after the streaming.
“What was that?” I nudged him.
“Well, how do you expect me to react?” he replied innocently.
“I could be busted, you know… Do you understand that they shouldn’t know? It’s supposed to be on the lie low.”
“I’m perfectly aware about the age issue and legality…but you can’t blame me because it was a spur of the moment reaction on my part. I was also shocked when somebody asked you about her. It would have been better if we had a plan on what to do when this kind of things pops out.”
“What if she would come across it? What should I do?” I know… I was so freaking out.
“It’s not like you said that you like or love her. They asked you if you miss her and you said yes. My ‘awwww’ wasn’t much of a giveaway. Trust me, don’t worry. It would have been so wrong if you lied and I faked my reaction.”
“Really? Why ‘awwwww’?”
“Because it’s really heartfelt and sweet. Didn’t you know how you looked like when you said it? The way you uttered those words….very revealing, indeed.”
“Stop. I don’t want to hear you say any more word.” Yeah, it’s a battlefield when you face the truth.
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Jay’s POV
What’s wrong with me? When I read my skinny mini buddy’s tweet that he’s going to attend the CMT Awards with Skylar because they will be presenting at that event, I suddenly missed my BFF, DeAndre. Maybe because I wanted to escape from the fact that I am a ‘bit’ jealous or I tried to convince myself that I’m not affected with it. Oh, my gosh! They both mean the same thing!
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Colton’s POV
I tweeted that without any malice. I will not take the risk of hurting her whether or not she feels anything for me at all. That’s why I’m having a hard time to understand why she tweeted that she missed DeAndre. When I said in my tweet that: “Worst. Headache. Ever:-(” it was only an understatement of what I had to undergo. Luckily for me, I am still alive right now. Just imagine how a tweet like that could already have a huge effect on me. Do you know what made me worse that day? For the Nth time, I was again asked if Skylar and I are dating. I’m sick and tired of repeating the same answer over and over again. How many more times do I have to insist that we are not dating before they put that rumor in the burner? One more thing, if this continues, I’ll have lesser chances on her.
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Jay’s POV
Many of my blujays are curious if I’m knowledgeable of all the ships that I have. Yes, I am. I’m not active but I know enough especially those that are on tumblr and twitter. Reblogging all the ships is a way for me not to be obvious that I prefer one over the other. Once I do that, there will be no sense of balance anymore. And I also don’t want to let people know who I like more or who really is my crush among them.
But when I reblogged the Minni-Micky duet picture in tumblr, it was extra special. When I make pinky promises I never break it. I know that it’s not possible on our tour to have a duet… Someday, IT WILL HAPPEN, though. I know it. I gotta compliment the one who edited the picture. It was ALMOST real. Colton, playing the piano, and me, singing on the piano, add it and you’ll get a result of PERFECT.
What about the twitter? ColtJess shippers already know that he’s the first one that I followed. Please don’t ask me why. It’s a secret ;-) Oh yeah, I was not good at hiding.
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Colton’s POV
When my sister said that I won’t date someone as young as Jessica, it is true. That’s why I’m willing to wait until she reaches the right age. I can survive through more than a year before she turns 18. It’s really not that long. If it still isn’t enough…I won’t give up until there’s no hope left at all and if she tells me to.
If I’m in school, it will be like taking a test of time. But instead of sooner, I’ll know ‘later’ if I pass or fail.
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Jay’s POV
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“Tonight?” he asked me. We were having a conversation in twitter without keeping in mind that we are being public about it. It was natural for us, I guess, that’s why we became oblivious. “Really?? :D” I couldn’t hide my happiness. It was too much to be kept inside.
“Let’s do it!” Got it.
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Colton’s POV
Patience has always been one of my strengths. When she was off to meet the Philippine President, I didn’t mind. In fact, I was so happy for her. Meeting the leader of a country is a big deal. Few of us get the rare chance of talking to a President. It just shows how very special she has become.
The sound of the ticking clock was disturbing me, so, I stayed away from anything that tells time. I’ll get more conscious if I know how long I’ve been waiting…desperate is the word.
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“I’ll wait for you and your mom,” I replied. Then, I tweeted, “Dinner with @JSanchezAI11 and her momma. Great peeps!”
When I saw her walking through the door, the room suddenly glowed with blinding lights. All I ever saw was this divine angel with crashing smile. Not minding that her mom is around, I gave her a neck hug. It was quite awkward because I didn’t know what to do next.
ColtJess shippers were waiting for even one picture especially the neck hug, but, it just happened so fast that it’s impossible to document an instinctive gesture. Hopefully, next time, somebody will be ready to take a photo. There was not much of exchange of words since her mom was with us while we were eating. But, we eventually had an alone time before we arrived home.
“So, you’re gonna learn more Tagalog words? You might go there either too soon, if our tour in the Philippines will push through, or at a later date if you’ll be going there for another reason. I need to learn too, I have some fans from the Philippines,” I asked her.
“My mom will start to teach me how to speak Filipino. I think I’m gonna have a hard time, though. I’m not that good with languages.”
“What’s that one phrase you’re most familiar with that I heard you say a few times?”
“Oh, it’s Mahal Kita! That means I Love You,” she said giddily.
You do love me? Am I too assuming? Nah! “Mahal Kita?”
“Yeah. It's funny you know, with the slang….” she admitted.
I’ll make sure to remember that certain Tagalog phrase…absolutely.
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Jay’s POV
The absence of pictures means one thing…it is more special. And the presence of my mom made it more meaningful. So, ColtJess shippers have nothing to worry about. It’s a good sign, in fact. Just think of it this way, behind the mask is a beautiful face. There’s more than what you see outside. Whatever it is, that’s what truly matters.
My mom was with us because she needed to supervise and look after us. It wouldn’t be right if I’m only seen with him. Besides, although my mom and DeAndre’s mom are bestfriends, and so are DeAndre and I, Colton is close with my mother. But let us keep that under wraps right now. We are trying to not make it obvious, after all.
The question is how did my mom like him? First, he’s this Christian guy we are all aware of. Being God-fearing is of utmost importance because you tend to stray away from sins, bad and wrong doings. Second is, he respects women, in general. The rest, is as they say, history. I know how deeper a mother can see through a person, especially a guy for her daughter… So, I absolutely value my mom’s view and opinion of this kind of stuff. If she will approve, my dad will too. And then, there will be me. As you notice, he has a LOT of things to survive from. Making it through would be next to impossible especially at this time. But we never know what might happen. The book doesn’t end here yet. Who says love is not a battlefield?
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Colton’s POV
I just keep on retweeting her tweets even though, most often than not, they are not connected with me and she already tweeted it LONG before. It proves how a crazy stalker and horrifying creeper I am. All, in the name of love for my skinny mini me.
Yet again, another door was opened for her when she got a gig by singing the American National Anthem in the title fight of Manny Pacquiao and Timothy Bradley. When she was offered that chance, she grabbed it. But before and after the event, it was a hard journey for her. It’s not unusual for people to be mean…BUT being SO mean is just way over board. She doesn’t deserve it.
I’m sorry, I’m gonna use this opportunity to defend her even if it’s already too late. I believe that I mentioned before that she is NOT a property. So, ‘these’ Filipinos, who are bashing her because they felt betrayed, are out of their mind by thinking that they own her that’s why she should do what they want her to do. They accuse her of being ungrateful. Well, that’s so narrow-minded. She didn’t ask for your support. You willingly gave it to her because she’s much more than worth it. Her REAL Filipino fans won’t think and feel those things.
The problem with these people is, they jump into conclusions right away. They judge without even knowing the reason why she wasn’t the one who sang the Philippine National Anthem. And yes, I definitely understood it. The young girl was chosen months before. That was the same time Jay was just starting to get known in Idol. It wouldn’t be right if they will be going to change the one who was assigned first with Jay weeks before the event. That is not only unprofessional but it would totally hurt the young girl too. Besides, my skinny me didn’t grow up knowing the Philippine National Anthem especially because she have lived in the US ever since she was born. She only knows few Filipino words. Mahal Kita comes to my mind. What’s the point of singing the song if she would not give justice to it because she’s not yet fully practiced and prepared? She needs to learn the language first. And maybe, even overcome that slang that Filipinos with mixed blood normally have.
Enough said. “these” people are only riding along and are not really her fans. You have to have a broader mind. And you need to be more understanding if you are TRULY a blujay.
If the messengers and the blujays will unite, it will be an epic.
Anyways, she did a great job. It was evident that once again, the audience was in awe of her unbelievable voice. It’s safe to say that it was one of the highlights of the event aside from the main fight itself and the result.
When I saw Pacquiao, I started to admire him. He immediately prayed on the corner once he stepped into the ring. The way he accepted the ‘rigged’ decision, he set as an example of a Christian boxer. And we all know that there are only few boxers who fall in that category. He can serve as an inspiration to others to straighten their path and walk with God.
Honestly, I thought he won regardless of the fact that I’m an American and Bradley is also one.
It was a day like any other but it ended to be contrary when I saw her post this on her Facebook account: “Being hurt by someone you really cared about, it makes me want to make them regret ever hurting my heart. Best way of doing that? Success. Get ready for it.”
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The vulnerability of a person is not based on one’s age. So, we wouldn’t know how damaging it might be for someone as young as my skinny me. But you know what? The only assurance that you are not ruined with merely ‘words’ of other people is when you know that God is with you. You asked for guidance, strength and courage from Him. He gave it to you. And there’s nothing more powerful than that. Our wisdom from God and our fortitude are also a part of the whole package. She has her family, relatives, friends and fans that are behind her. She will not be easily brought down by anyone or anything.
With the hurting that she is going through right now, I would not want to be obvious publicly but at least, I want the people to have a hint that my concern for her is unquestionable. So, I tweeted this, “Sticks and stones may break my bones But I’m through with your words Cuz all they’ve done is hurt. #sticksandstones”.
I don’t have to be her boyfriend just so I can mend her bleeding heart. I would always be right by her side no matter what even if I’m only a friend. She could run to me anytime. The true meaning of love is your ever enduring presence whether for the worst of times or good ones. You can sacrifice everything for the sake of the one you love…that’s what makes it so unconditional. And that’s exactly the love I have for her.
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Jay’s POV
DeAndre and I were watching a movie when my skinny mini buddy arrived. Prior to that, I tried to find him so he could watch the movie with me. Unluckily, he was out somewhere that’s why I asked DeAndre to fill in for him. But I didn’t actually say that to my best friend because he wouldn’t like it.
I like scary films. In fact, I’m not afraid to watch those but I still need to have someone with me. It’s a relief to know that you have a person you can cuddle with especially when you get so afraid. That assures you that you’re still in the real world. I mean, fantasies can take you very far away that you fail to come back to your true senses. Everything went smoothly until he let us feel his presence, “Hey, how come you didn’t invite me?”
He was talking to me. I saw his flashing smile again that made me giddy. DeAndre was still beside me though, even if he vanished for a moment. I sat straight on the couch, moving away from DeAndre as far as possible. I didn’t want him to get a different notion about us. But I can’t still deny that I have grown so much comfortable with DeAndre, that everything doesn’t have any malice with me. I just don’t know about DeAndre because his view about it might not be the same.
“You’re still on time…the movie is not yet halfway,” she replied.
Don’t make it awkward. Say something DeAndre.
To be honest, I was sitting in between the two guys. Thankfully, I was successful at not leaning in to either of them because it might build a tension. The environment was already scorching hot as it is…I wouldn’t add anything more to that. To think that the movie is quite boring made the situation more disturbing. You can’t help but focus your attention from what you’re watching and switching it to other things. I decided to tweet…
Soul mate as we are, he went online too. And we were practically thinking the same.
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Colton’s POV
When I noticed that some of my fellow finalists were watching a movie, I went to check it out. I had a feeling that she might be there because I know how much she loves movies aside from video games.
I was right. I almost jumped for joy because I found her but then, my happiness was short lived when I saw DeAndre with her. Of course, he is her best friend. He is around her MOST of the time. Then, I remembered that, it was Erika who told me that my skinny me was looking for me few hours ago.
A thought came into my mind. Maybe, she really wanted to be with me but since I was nowhere to be found, she asked DeAndre to tag along. And knowing him, he would absolutely agree.
Since, I was already there, I decided to watch the movie with them…mainly it’s because of her. When I discovered she was also online, I couldn’t hide my amusement. She was bored with the movie too. Don’t be obvious. Don’t even dare to mention her name on twitter. It will attract less gossip that way. The lesser it is, the more privacy we have. And more privacy means extra special.
I was caught off guard when someone on twitter asked me if I have a crush on my skinny mini me. A guy like me, who’s in his right mind, wouldn’t answer that question with a yes. I noticed that tweet right away because it was too interesting to miss. I thought of my answer very carefully. It should be somewhere in the middle. Well, I will not say no because that would be me, lying. So, the safer reply would be, “@GeneblujayGwapo @jsanchezai11 hahahahahahahaha! We have dinner and everyone is suspect;-). No, we are just good friends.”
I neither deny nor admit anything. But I guess, the ColtJess are just too clever to believe what I said. They deciphered it word by word. Seriously speaking, I think no matter how hard I try to keep it on the down low, they still manage to correctly evaluate every single thing. For example, there were too many ‘hahaha’, I brought up the ‘private’ dinner even though it wasn’t mentioned by the person who was asking, the wink (which was, admittedly, a mistake on my part…I should have used a different one that wouldn’t give away the truth), and the ‘good friends’ excuse.
It’s typical for ‘secret’ (celebrity) couples to say, every time they are asked about the real score between him and the other person, that cliché phrase. Yeah right. They use that in hiding their relationship. But when you say ‘little sister’ that’s when one conclude that there’s really nothing going on behind. So, you see, I was busted. To tell you the truth, I didn’t lie when I said that. The good thing actually is we all know that a lot can grow from being ‘good friends’. In fact, that’s when it usually starts to turn into something MORE.
You know what guys? When the right time comes, I’ll be straightforward. Coming from my heart, I’ll finally admit it without having to fear about any legal or moral issues. Cheer up!
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Jay’s POV
If I was given a choice, he should have come too. Remember, I’m Minnie while he’s Micky. Instead, I went to Disneyland with my best friend. I still didn’t forget my skinny mini buddy, though. I was wearing something that sends the message that I only have one Micky… The Minnie mouse head gear. DeAndre was not wearing any…aside from the fact that he looks funny with it, he is not my Micky. Definitely not.
If I was given a choice, he should have come too. Remember, I’m Minnie while he’s Micky. Instead, I went to Disneyland with my best friend. I still didn’t forget my skinny mini buddy, though. I was wearing something that sends the message that I only have one Micky… The Minnie mouse head gear. DeAndre was not wearing any…aside from the fact that he looks funny with it, he is not my Micky. Definitely not.
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Colton’s POV
Just to subside the longing that I feel inside, I sat down one night and watched the Big Fish movie. I know…I’m being hopeless romantic. Men don’t watch this kind of movies. It just isn’t.
There’s something about the movie that I feel close with. And yes, I kinda relate to it. “Hope to find a girl like Edward does in big fish. Call me romantic, but the picture tim burton paints in that movie is beautiful,” I tweeted.
I don’t need to look that far… I have already come across my Sandra Templeton and she’s under a different name, Jessica Elizabeth Bugay Sanchez.
Illusion? Not really.
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“How did I look like on camera?” I asked her.
“Trying to be wacky, as per usual,” she replied.
“Let me see,” I insisted.
She was the one who came in front because I can’t actually move to the back of the car.
“Cute. I haven’t seen a face as cute and as natural as that…” I was referring to her.
She gave me ‘the’ look. “Admiring the view much my skinny mini buddy?”
“If you don’t know, I was talking about you…not myself.” How direct that statement was?
“Oh.” She was shocked.
We look really good together, ain’t we?
She tweeted, “Rehearsing #idoltour”. I needed to retweet it. Don’t even ask how come did I manage to see it? I just do. My radar is just beyond, regardless if the tweet isn’t for me.
Dear Hee Jun, I’m being discreet, so can you not mess it up? I’m going to be busted because of him. That sad picture of me when she was not around, I saw it on twitter! He is the mastermind of that crime. Hee Jun, next time, man, you have to ask permission from me. You shouldn’t just post pictures of me because that would be another evidence of missing her when she’s somewhere far away. I can’t get her off my mind.
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Jay’s POV
Some people saw me and DeAndre holding hands. They got the wrong impression. It’s not as if I don’t hold his hand. They should take note of one important thing before they arrive to a wrong conclusion…our fingers were not intertwined.
Let us make it less blurred for these people. There’s a huge difference between holding someone’s hand, not having a weird feeling, and being too afraid or shy to hold his/her hand because you can feel the electricity rushing through your veins that when you do it, you’ll explode.
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Colton’s POV
I tell you, my skinny mini me and DeAndre are around each other almost every time. You can’t possibly imagine how that would make me feel. Whenever I go through that state, there’s a voice inside me that’s saying, “They’re best of friends. If there’s something more than that, it’s on his side and not hers. He admires her… That’s very sure. So, he will just enjoy each opportunity. You should be jealous if and only if she reciprocates that kind of feeling too. Isn’t it that even though you get to be together once in a while, those were the moments she’s happier? And that’s also the case with you. Will it hurt for you to assume that there’s a tiny bit of probability that she feels the same way as you do? DeAndre will always be her best friend. Whatever she feels for him, it’s plainly platonic. As for me, the sense of that little awkwardness still left between us brings hope.”
I didn’t have a hard time writing new songs. After all, I have an inspiration. Our duet might not happen for now. It might even take long. I’ll also wait for that incredible moment when I would be able to write a song with her. We both love music and making beautiful ones together would just be amazing. Since, that’s impossible to happen yet; I’ll be contented writing songs for her. More songs about her will come into existence especially that we’re gonna tour together. And when it ends in Manila on September 21st, I’ll even become more determined to write songs about us. Yeah, don’t tell her about this plan. We have to avoid jinxing it. So, is that a deal?
Anyways, here’s a part of the whole lyrics of a song that, well….you already know the message. I don’t think I still have to explain. I posted it on my FB because who knows, DeAndre and all those other ‘guys’, will get to read it and understand the meaning that it conveys? “When all you ever see are broken pieces, how can you believe? When all you ever know is isolation. Count down the days until you feel freedom. Hold on to hope, it’s only a season under quarantine.”
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Jay’s POV
“What are you going to do with that batman backpack with a hood? Are you going to give it to one of your brothers?” DeAndre asked me.
“No. Guess.”
“Well, you gave me a bracelet…it was really nice. Let me think……. I have no idea. The only one who’s an insane fan of Batman that we know of is….”
Colton.
“Why would you buy that for him?”
Good question DeAndre. Why? I’m with my best friend but all that I can think of is my skinny mini buddy. And the moment I saw that batman bag, I instantly want to buy it for him. He’ll be happy when he sees it. He’s gonna be like an obsessed kid. I have to confess, I was once wearing a Robin costume. Come to think of it, it kinda connects AGAIN, like it usually is. Batman and Robin….the partners in saving the world. Colton and I, the…skinny mini couple? WOW! It really is fate, destiny and written on the stars…name it. How are you even going to top that?
“Close your eyes,” I commanded to him.
“What’s up?”
“Just do it, skinny mini buddy, please.”
“Okay maam, I’ll do what you say,” he replied.
“One, two, three, go. You can open your eyes.”
“Seriously? You bought a batman backpack for me? How cute and sweet! Thank you. You’re the best Jay.” I am about to be suffocated because he was hugging me so tightly. Like a bird, I was caged in his warm arms. “I love you so much.”
Slip of the tongue? Or did he mean it? If I remember correctly, that’s the second time he said that phrase to me. The first one was when he was eliminated. I was right. He was just overjoyed. And it’s true that he’s the kind of person that can be happy with simple things. Even though, he’s four years older than me, he’s still child at heart. Oh Colton, can you wait for me? I pray and hope that you can and you will.
“Wait! Don’t remove it yet. I’ll take a picture. Then, you can post it on you twitter if you want. This moment is too cute to forget.”
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Colton’s POV
When I went to visit my parents, that’s when I discovered that Jessica and DeAndre did a UStream together. If only I didn’t need to sleep early that night, I would have forced the door open and barged in to her room. I would either let DeAndre out of the room or I would lie in between them. I should keep in mind, though, I’m a Christian and I won’t do that no matter how tempted I am.
At least, my name was mentioned here and there. To be more specific…twice.
I’m pretty sure that at the start, many were asking for me. Where is Colton? I know what you feel ColtJess shippers. Still, at least, she did what she promised. Seeing her, while looking so natural, is enough for you to rejoice. She needed to rest, since she looked really tired, but she did it anyway…all for the sake of her blujays. By the way, don’t mind DeAndre if you’re not a JayAndre shipper. You can focus only on my skinny mini me. That’s your choice. But, it doesn’t hurt to give him a chance. We’re all brothers and sisters, God’s children, aren’t we?
What better way than to end this with a picture that is worth swooning…one that can melt even those with darkest and coldest of hearts.
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Let me leave you with this quote from Our Daily Bread (2012), “A Faith worth having is a faith worth sharing”. Do you believe in ColtJess? I do. That’s why I’m sharing this to you. Join me as I sail through this ocean of uncertainty while I hold on to what’s certain, my love for her.
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Woooooow! I was so amazed! This is the best Coljess fan fiction I've ever read. Because those other fan fictions I've read has too-mature scenes, you know? I was so happy that this story really followed what age they should act like.
ReplyDeleteI salute you so much! :))
I'm also very happy that you're a Filipino!
And even though it's a simple, I was literally getting all kilig while reading this, I was actually smiling the whole time I was reading this, because in other fics I read, the happenings there were so far form what's really happening to them right now, but you? You just added some conversations and ta-da! You just created a masterpiece. This is the BEST, and I mean the BEST fanfic I've ever read. :))
Thank you so much for making this.